My friend said she just doesn't get excited for things anymore, because it always leads to disappointment.
I realize that I am quite a positive person. I smile through the hard times, the sad times, and of course the best times. I see something positive in every day, every moment, and every person. It is just who I am, no matter how unhappy I am, I am constantly smiling, and doing my best to have at least one great thing occur.
For someone like me, it is hard to understand what others are going through, when they can't see the positives, when they can't just smile and find the good. When my friend said that she doesn't get excited anymore, because of disappointment, it reminded me of why I am who I am today. If I didn't get excited for things, I wouldn't have the life I have now. I wouldn't be my ambitious self, who goes out and does so many amazing things.
When an exciting plan falls through, I don't look at the situation and think, That sucks. I should have known. That was to good to be true. I think, awhh...that would have been so much fun! But that is okay, we or I will find something so much better to do!! I am so excited to see what we or I will do instead!
Not many people can do this...when I see an opportunity, weather it seems impossible or not, I get excited, and go for it. If it doesn't work, then I move on to something just as exciting, and never really get disappointed. If I am disappointed, it is just for a few minutes,then I perk back up, and move on. Here is where I question weather this is a good or a bad thing. To be positive, and get excited, and easily move on.
This is what I think:
If something incredible turns up, no matter the possibility of it occurring, go for it. If it goes wrong, then find something better. Something even better may come out of it.
If you have read my previous posts, you would know that I really want to study abroad in Brighton, England for a year. I have wanted to do this for a while, and am SO excited. I really hope this opportunity becomes a reality. There I am getting to excited again. But, lets say, it doesn't happen. Maybe I can't afford it, or something stand in my way. Yeah, I will be sad. I will wish it still could have happened, and will imagine what it would have been like. But I know that I can't keep thinking like that, because I will just become depressed. Instead, I find something good that will come out of me staying. Maybe I can plan a trip outside of the state, or somewhere with some close friends. I can save up for a vacation to Europe after I graduate from college! I can focus on college here, graduate, and receive the best career in the world. I can use the money I will save from studying abroad for a future trip, probably to England and Paris. ect.
You see? That right there, is what I do. I am happy to be positive. It allows me to achieve so much! I remember in middle school I tried out for the dance team in 6th grade, and didn't make it. I tried out again in 7th grade, and still didn't make it. at that point, would you give up? Well, I didn't. In 8th grade, I tried out...and made it. I expected not to make it, but tired anyways.
Positivity is never giving up. Its seeing the ups inside the downs. It is seeing what good can come out of a bad situation. It is not worrying about what bad could happen, but what good could happen.
Often, I hear people say But what if (something bad) happens...then what? I usually respond with Yes, but what if (something good) happens? You will never know. unless you go for it, 100 and 10% (Dr. Seuss reference)
Seriously, if you want something, no matter how out of reach, and what disappointment may come out of it, give it your ALL, every single bit of your effort, your energy, your attention, no matter how difficult, and that disappoint will never reach you. so...really, life is in your hands. It is your decision on how you want to live: With disappointment haunting your every move, or adventure, happiness, extraordinary moments.
Ashley Marie
March 21, 2014
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