Decisions, Decisions, Decisions.

       Decisions are hard to make. Right now, I am faced with one of the biggest life decisions I have ever come in contact with. And I will admit, I am terrified, I don't know which option to choose, I have an idea, but it is so hard. What is that decision you may ask? Well, It is about choosing a college to attend. 

       If you saw my last post, you would see that I took a trip out to visit GCU (Grand Canyon University) in Arizona. Everything about that place is amazing. It is gorgeous, warm, home like, friendly, and the amount of activities is endless. I would love to go there, but...it is not that easy. You see, my other choice is to attend CWI (College of Western Idaho), a community college. Both options are quite different in price, location, people, style, housing, ect. 

     If I attend GCU, I will be able to meet so many new, amazing people, and potentially start over and get an opportunity to learn and gain new fun experiences. To me, the college experience is huge. You only have a few years to have that experience, then its gone, its over, that is it. So, if I go to GCU, I get that experience. If I attend CWI, I won't get that college experience, but I will pay off my first to years very quickly, I will get a job, own my own car, and stay with a few friends, and not really have the opportunity to completely start over. If I go to CWI, then I do however, have the opportunity to study abroad in England for a year (which I mentioned in a blog post in the past). But then I wounder, If I really want to do that or not...

     This decision may be easy for some, but for me, my decison determines my life for the next two years. Who my friends will be, what my life looks like (crazy activities, or normal old boise). It determines what life path I will take, the connections I make or loose, the people I will gain or loose as friends, and SO much more. It is just stressful to think about. And the worst part? I need to make a decision ASAP for several reasons. Tips anyone? Tips would be wonderful. Every one tells me to follow my heart, but that is quite hard when your heart is torn. I wish I could get a strait answer, know it is the write choice, and just go with it, with no hesitation, and not regret. See, that the thing. I don't want to make a choice, and regret it in the end. That, to me, is the worst possible thing that can happen. I regret a HUGE decision. 

I promise to update my blog on my final decisions, and later I will blog about weather I regret my decision or not, and even give tips from what I learned from all this. 

    I know this is not Tuesday, and I am not sure if this post will replace the one for Tuesday or if I will post something else, either way, have a beautiful week, enjoy life, and I love you all(:

Ashley Marie

Sunday, March 2, 2014